Dear L

Dear L,

Your mommy is having surgery soon. Since you are too small right now to understand what is going on, I am writing this for you to read some day in the future.

There are some pieces of my body, called ovaries, that I need to have removed because there’s a good chance that in the future they will make me sick. Ovaries are what made my mom (your grandmother) sick, and why you never had a chance to know her. I don’t want that to happen to me. I want you to be able to have your Mommy around for a very very long time.

I believe that everything will go smoothly during my surgery, because my doctor is smart and very good at his job. But after this surgery, I will have some boo-boos on my tummy, and I won’t be able to pick you up for two long weeks. You are very lucky to have many people who love you SO SO SO much who can help me take care of you while my boo-boos are healing. Daddy, PopPop & Abuela, Granny, and V* are all going to come over to play with you. And even though I wont be able to pick you up, we can still snuggle and read books together and maybe even watch a movie. 🙂

Surgery is a scary thing. But I am trying to be brave because of you. I’m doing this now because I want to stick around for you, to be by your side as you grow up. I need to do everything I can to keep myself healthy because I love you SO SO SO much and you deserve to have a healthy mommy.

You are the most important thing in the world to me and the light in my life. Your silly sense of humor, boundless energy, sweet loving nature, and brilliant little mind have made you my absolute favorite person in the world. No matter what happens to me now or in the future, I hope you can always know that this is true: I love you so incredibly deeply and feel so very lucky to be more you Mama.

Thank you for being my everything and my reason for living. I love you with all my heart.

Your Mommy

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